between now and nowhere
Coffee with a friend helped.
Virtual coffee with a friend and mentor half a world away helped.
A snuggle with my husband helped.
Keeping myself occupied with the possible psychological effects of iconography on an ancient society helped.
My new wearable Ecuadoran alpacha blanket is definitely helping.
The weather still isn’t helping. I have little energy and even less motivation to do simple things like make dinner or clean off my desk.
the cold isn’t helping. I should really do laundry, but the basement is freezing. Maybe I’ll recruit the girls… no, they always lose my clothes.
A bath might help, with some Epsom salts and essential oils and sweet almond oil. I think my toenails are overdue for a paint job- the green is losing its luster.
I’m trying to surround myself with brightness and color, as it seems to help. But the lighting in my house sucks, and everything outside, after the morning snow melts, is a dull grayish brown with hints of withered ocher.
I want to paint again. I’m trying to figure out where to set up my easel and what to clip my lights to. And I’m messy, so I’ll need a drop cloth.
I tried to start making jewelry again but I keep forgetting how to tie the knots.
Maybe I just need glue…
I’m worried about my desperate clinging to snippets of fantasies floating through my mind. It’s the only color that seems to stay, and I don’t want to get too lost in them.
I’d better usurp the bathing facilities before someone else does. Inevitably, the second I start thinking of bathing, three other people announce their intentions toward usurping the bathroom as well.
Hopefully the world will seem slightly brighter when I’m scrubbed and polished.
February 20 2010 06:38 pm | culture and kids and life and mental health and photography and school and utah
February 20th, 2010 at 7:41 pm
Well, I don’t know about the world being brighter – but YOU certainly will be, after your bath and all that scrubbing and polishing.
You know, when Love Muffin gets to a similar place, I find giving her a good massage helps. A lot.
February 21st, 2010 at 9:49 am
One of the only things I remember from a stupid but entertaing TV series Gung Fu (sp?) is when the wise old blind master explains to “grasshopper” as the watch fish in a pond that they see only a portion of reality. What is really there are several worlds. They each have their own world, each fish has it’s own world, there is a different world for every entity and they are all different in their own perception. Sooooo, what does that mean? To me it means that everybody has their own troubles to deal with and to do so it helps to know that everybody else sees things in and out of their own little world and most of it is BS. DeDad
February 21st, 2010 at 9:51 am
One of the only things I remember from a stupid but entertaing TV series Gung Fu (sp?) is when the wise old blind master explains to “grasshopper” as they watch fish in a pond that they see only a portion of reality. What is really there are several worlds. They each have their own world, each fish has it’s own world, there is a different world for every entity and they are all different in their own perception. Sooooo, what does that mean? To me it means that everybody has their own troubles to deal with and to do so it helps to know that everybody else sees things in and out of their own little world and most of it is BS. DeDad
February 21st, 2010 at 9:54 am
sorry for the dupe, tried to correct spelling etc.
Also to note, this is not to say that you are full of BS, but that everybody has their share and we get a lot of it from our perception of all the other worlds around us. It is hard to tell what is BS and what is not, seems we all have a world veiw that depends on the stimulus and information we get from all the other worlds around us.
February 21st, 2010 at 11:05 am
Hope you’re feeling better after the scrub and polish! Gorgeous pictures again!!!!
February 23rd, 2010 at 4:33 pm
It is all realative……I spent the entire day on Monday in the garage while it rained outside……I felt invigorated……it almost never rains here.